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Sunday, July 31, 2011

the Japanese image

At a home party last time, i was told by multiple people independently that 1) I don't look Japanese(日本人に見えない!!)and 2) I don't look my age (they actually guessed older.... which to me isn't very flattering) (えーー未だ2#だけなの?大人っぽいね。落ち着いてるね).

These are comments I get all the time everywhere.

I admit, compared to other Japanese girls my age, I at least act older. In fact, Japanese people are always commenting on how "american girls" seem so much older. Even when I was in middle school, I thought my classmates were a little more childish compared to my own. How? That's difficult to say... less independence? less defined personality? less ambition for something greater? more shy with a quivering sense of self? There must be something about the "American childhood" or values or education or SOMETHING that raises children to be so obviously difference from japanese children. What that is, I can't put a finger on quite yet.

By blood, I'm 100% Japanese. Yet, people in the US and people in Japan have this idea of what a typical Japanese woman looks like, and for some reason, I don't fall into that category. I guess that also means they have an idea of what non-Japanese looks like. One thing about Japan that I find unfortunate is that it can be xenophobic... it can be afraid, unwelcoming, or just distant from what they view as the "other." Of course, Japanese are obsessed with the "Western" world -- fashion, music, food, the brown hair, big-eyed european... But there's a difference between staring at wonder - like a piece displayed at a museum - versus that "other thing" becoming an intimate part of their lives.
I was speaking to one 34 year old gentleman who's been working in Texas as an antique dealer for 5 years. He told me that he initially could not get used to the lifestyle here, but now, he really loves it. His wife has only been here for about 3 years and desires to go back to Tokyo. They have one 2 year old daughter. One of his worries was that he doesn't know whether or not to raise his child in the US or in Japan. He doesn't know which is "better" for his child. But one truth is that if they stay in the US, his child will inevitably be "americanized," and he can't imagine his child being culturally different from him. Of course, as long as his child is happy and is raised properly with good values, that's the best he could ask for. So he admits this worry must be so miniscule but he does think about it. He then said that I act very Japanese, so he's feeling more reassured after meeting me.I honestly have never really thought about that ever... maybe because I AM like that daughter, raised in a bi-cultural environment. I will never be fully "american" and never fully "japanese" at the same time -- whatever that means! But I take pride in that. Not being able to be placed in to a label box.
But I wonder, how good are those label boxes for anyone, really. Can people be put in a box of japanese or american? And how productive is that? Yea, I don't look Japanese, I may act Japanese, I am genetically Japanese, I seem more mature than Japanese my age -- but none of those description really say anything about me at all. Trying to put people in categories ultimately create the in vs. out, familiar vs. other, us vs. them - that kind of mentality. Not that this isn't beneficial at times, but it can slow down true growth....? true acceptance? true celebration of humanity in the world? haha getting cheesy now.

sigh. These are issues i will probably continue thinking about throughout my life. Perhaps I will come to new realizations after I start a family of my own.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Difficult introduction of 2 cats pt.II

It has been a week since I've adopted my new kitten, and I am thrilled.
The introduction process - although going slowly at first - suddenly took off!

Day 3
By day 3, I had decided to introduce the two through just a cage, uncovered.
On day 2, I took new kitten to the vet, so during that time, I let resident cat sniff out the bathroom where kitten was confined. I also covered the carrier with a cloth, and put that in the center of the living room. Of course, resident cat hissed at it.
So here are the steps for Day 3
- I put new kitten in the carrier and placed it initially covered, in the living room.
- Let resident cat become aware of its presence
- I then took out resident cat's favorite treats and gave them to her in front of the still covered cage
- Slowly, I unveiled the cage while the resident cat was scarfing down the treats
- Lots of hissing. Even a cat punch. Actually, resident cat even cat punched me when I was trying to push new kitten's paws back into the cage. It's funny, even though a big cat is hissing and punching right in front of him, new kitten didnt seem scared at all. He was sticking out his paws through the cage, meowing. Luckily, resident cat has never punched baring her nails, so I didn't get hope and hopefully kitten didn't either
- After the treats, I just left the cage uncovered, in the room for 30-40 minutes.


Day 4 - MIRACLE DAY!
So Day 4... Perhaps I was rushing. BUT, I decided to just introduce them face-to-face
Why so soon? Well -- I saw resident cat and kitten pawing at each other through the crack of the bathroom door.
Resident cat didn't seem afraid of the kitten anymore, and definitely less hissing. She also just lay by the bathroom, relaxed.
So what I did:
- Again, I put kitten in carrier and put it in the living room.
- Once resident cat was aware.... I just opened the cage door. Let nature run its course!
- Cautiously, kitten steps out.
- No hissing yet!
- Kitten then begins exploring the living room
- Resident cat follows kitten
- Kitten starts playing with the curtain strings.
- Resident cat curiously paws at the kitten.
- Kitten takes off in a run -- Cat follows -- then a long whirlwind of cat-chase begins.
- They switch being chased and chasing.

Now, 1 week after adoption, I hear no hissing at all. They get along great. Rough play a lot, resident cat even licks kitten sometimes, they eat food together...

I think things will be just fine.
:D

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Difficult Introduction of 2 cats

My last true summer is almost over.
It has been a very fruitful one - my internship has been an amazing experience. My mentor is amazing, the surgeries I've seen and patients I've meet have been truly engaging.
I feel like I have stepped out of this summer a little bit more mature. I have a clear direction - surgery - that I want to go. And I feel ignited with ambition and determination, something very important during these long years of constant studying, where we often feel the fuel drain away as we burn out.

In other news, I am on a quick 10-day vacation. Well, not really a vacation because I have a lot of work to do - but my mentor is out of town, so I can work from home.

During this time, I decided to adopt a new kitten.

I have one cat - a tortoiseshell - who is about 1 year and 2 months. I found her in my parking lot last summer, and my boyfriend decided that adopt her. I found her right before my 1-month trip to SE Asia, so I wasn't planning on adopting her. I was going to feed her, take care of her shots/immunizations, socialize her a bit, and then ask a shelter to take her in. We found her at 5-6 weeks, so still a very young kitten and thus popular among adopted pets.

I went to several shelters in the area and finally found the kitten I thought would be the one. It's a boy, 8 weeks, and a creamy orange tabby. He has white feet (like stockings) and a white belly. Cutest little thing.

The introduction - still ongoing - is progressing... slow or fast? Depends, I suppose. I've read that cats can take from hours to months to accept one another... And some might never. But I wasn't expecting my resident cat to react with such aggression... so the road has been difficult.

Day 1
Day 1 was simple. I adopted kitten in the early afternoon (Wed Jul 20), and once I got home, I took him to the bathroom where I set up his temporary confinement. I brought back the carrier and placed it in the living room for resident cat to smell. So far... no hissing... Then I went into the bathroom and cuddle with kitten for a while, letting him know that everything is okay and that he is safe. Then I left my apartment and went back to work. Wanted to give both of them time to just calm down.
At night, I played with resident cat.

Troubles 1: When I went into the bathroom to be with kitten for a while, then when I came out, resident cat was really quite angry. Her posture was tense. I let her smell my hand and she actually growled and hiss at it many times. She didn't attack me or anything, but I have never seen her growl or hiss except just once at the vet. So surprised... I was expecting just curiosity at the least... and was really hoping for that chirping purr that resident cat did to the neighborhood stray cats. I guess since kitten was actually in her turf, she felt threatened.

I covered the crack under the door so that they won't be able to see each other, and just went to bed. Resident cat never came close to the door. Just hissed at it from a distance
Patience seems to be the true virtue in this scenarios. Don't rush anything!

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Listen to the Body

Listen: It can tell us many things if we just pay attention to its whisper. Listen: Because by the time our body is yelling at us, it may be too late.


As I grow older, I know that I will witness the passing of many close and loved ones. I am afraid, although I know it is inevitable.

Yesterday, my boyfriend's young friend passed away of lung cancer at the blossoming age of 32. He was married, has a 1 year old baby boy, healthy and fit as can be. Thirty Two Years Old. Far too young... Do the good really have to die young?
My boyfriend met up with him a month or 2 ago as this friend was in TX for a business trip. He said that the friend seemed fine, but he did ask my boyfriend how his health was. My boyfriend laughed saying, everything is good, just getting older and fatter. The friend, however, said that his lower back has been really aching lately. In early May, he finally went to the doctor and they diagnosed him with metastatic end-stage lung cancer. He died only a few weeks later, complete shocking everyone. Even a mere 4-5 days before his death, he was eating home-made food from friends, saying how delicious it was. Just a week before his death, he was writing to people that although the treatment is aggressive, draining, and sometimes painful, he is feeling better and feels physically and mentally ready for a full-blown chemo or radiation therapy. And then he just... dies. At 32.

Listen to your body... At 32, so young and fit... a chronic back ache that seems strange and misplaced really might be your body telling you "something is wrong! get it checked out!" Just make a quick appointment to a family doctor... go to a screening. If you can, just order some X-rays. Really, not as expensive as MRIs or CTs or PET scans. I would much rather be labeled a hypochondriac then to realize a disease too late.


My mother also told me that her lab member came to her this past week, saying that he has stage 4 renal cell carcinoma. Prognosis... I don't know... But the tumors on his kidneys are large. My mother cried and cried and cried. She noticed that he had been losing weight lately, and her co-worker just said, yea! I've been working out every Thursday after work, and I feel great afterwards. But think about it! Working out one day a week can't lead to noticeable weight loss... That was probably another big sign the body was trying to shout out.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Incredible Literature

 Pretty neat! article

 

10 works of literature that were really hard to write

By Mark Juddery, Mental Floss
January 16, 2011 11:07 a.m. EST
These 10 authors may not be Shakespeare, but they sure had vaulting ambitions.
STORY HIGHLIGHTS
  • Ernest Vincent Wright's novel was written without using the letter "e"
  • "The Diving Bell and the Butterfly," a memoir, was dictated solely through blinks
  • "Baby Shoes" by Ernest Hemingway is a powerful story told in only six words

(Mental Floss) -- 1. The story that will never be an e-Book
"Gadsby" by Ernest Vincent Wright

Some might call "Gadsby" a "love" story. But Ernest Vincent Wright wouldn't have used that word. Instead, he described his novel as a story of "strong liking" and "throbbing palpitation." That's because in 1939, Wright gave himself one restriction: He promised to write "Gadsby" without using the letter E.
Wright wanted to prove that a great author could work around such a restriction and still tell a gripping story. To prevent any stray Es from entering the text, he tied down his typewriter's E key, and then put his expansive vocabulary to the test. The result is an astounding feat of verbal gymnastics. While vividly describing a wedding scene, Wright manages to avoid the words "bride," "ceremony," and even "wedding" (he calls it "a grand church ritual").
To explain away the verbosity of the language, he uses a narrator whose poor command of English and circumlocution even irritates the story's other characters.
When the book was announced, one skeptic attacked Wright in a letter, claiming that the feat was impossible. "All right," replied Wright in the book's intro, "the impossible has been accomplished." Sadly, Wright didn't live long enough to revel in "Gadsby's" critical acclaim. He died the year the book was published.
2. The tale told in the blink of an eye
"The Diving Bell and the Butterfly" by Jean-Dominique Bauby

Many authors have struggled through illness and injury to write their masterpieces, but none more so than Jean-Dominique Bauby, editor-in-chief of French fashion magazine Elle. In 1995, at the age of 43, Bauby suffered a major stroke and slipped into a coma. He regained consciousness two days later, but his entire body -- with the exception of his left eyelid -- was paralyzed.
Still, Bauby was determined to write. Using only his lucid mind and one eye, he began working on his memoir, "The Diving Bell and the Butterfly." Each night, he'd lie awake editing and re-editing the story in his mind, memorizing every paragraph as he hoped to relay it.
By day, his transcriber would recite the alphabet to him over and over. When she reached a letter Bauby desired, he'd wink. Each word took about two minutes to produce, and during the course of a year, Bauby managed to tell his story of life in paralysis. His moving and often funny prose won critical acclaim, and "The Diving Bell and the Butterfly" became a bestseller throughout Europe.
Sadly, Bauby died of pneumonia in 1997, soon after the first edition was published in France. He missed not only the English translation, but also the award-winning film adaptation released in 2007.
3. The poetry of speed
"Transcendence-Perfection" by Sri Chinmoy

Before his death in 2007, Indian spiritual master Sri Chinmoy wrote at least 1,000 books, 20,000 songs, and 115,000 poems. Some he penned in his mother tongue, Bengali, and some in his second language, English.
His poems won numerous awards and inspired countless writers and musicians. And while Sri Chinmoy was clearly a fast writer, he was never as quick as on November 1, 1975, when he wrote "Transcendence-Perfection," a collection of 843 poems -- all written in 24 hours.
How was Sri Chinmoy so prolific? He believed the key was meditation. As he once explained, "The outer mind is like the surface of the sea. On the surface, the sea is full of waves and surges ... But when we dive deep below, the same sea is all peace, calmness and quiet, and there we find the source of creativity."
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4. History's greatest sonnet
"Washington Crossing the Delaware" by David Shulman

Etymologist David Shulman was a true lover of words. One of the most prolific contributors to the Oxford English Dictionary, Shulman tracked down the roots of Americanisms for more than 70 years. But those weren't Shulman's only contributions to the world.
During World War II, he served in the army and used his language skills to crack Japanese codes. His most astonishing feat as a wordsmith, however, occurred in 1936, when he composed the sonnet "Washington Crossing the Delaware."
What makes the poem so remarkable is that every one of Shulman's 14 lines is an anagram of the title. What's more, the lines are rhyming couplets, and they tell a story, more or less. Here's an excerpt:
A hard, howling, tossing water scene.
Strong tide was washing hero clean.
"How cold!" Weather stings as in anger.
O Silent night shows war ace danger!
As poetry, it isn't exactly Walt Whitman. But then, Whitman was never this good with anagrams.
5. Six powerful words
"Baby Shoes" by Ernest Hemingway

According to legend, Ernest Hemingway created the shortest short story ever told. While having lunch at New York City's famous Algonquin Round Table, Hemingway bragged that he could write a captivating tale -- complete with beginning, middle, and end -- in only six words.
His fellow writers refused to believe it, each betting $10 that he couldn't do it. Hemingway quickly scribbled six words down on a napkin and passed it around. As each writer read the napkin, they conceded he'd won. Those six words? "For sale. Baby shoes. Never worn."
While the anecdote may be apocryphal, whoever did write "Baby Shoes" has forced writers forever after to consider the economy of words. Today, the work has inspired countless six-word memoir and story competitions, proving that a story's brevity is no limit to its power.
Mental Floss: 7 tiny books that packed a big punch
6. The story of youth
"The Young Visiters" by Daisy Ashford

Daisy Ashford's novella about Victorian society is considered something of a classic. First published in 1919, the work is still in print and has been turned into a movie. But if that doesn't sound remarkable, consider that Ashford was only 9 years old when she wrote it.
To preserve the authenticity of the story, publishers decided to leave in Ashford's plentiful grammar mistakes and spelling errors (the title, for example). They also added a foreword by Peter Pan author J.M. Barrie to assure readers that this was no hoax. Barrie reminded people that the novel was indeed written by a little girl, who was "hauled off to bed every evening at six."
7. The most visionary story ever told
"Futility" by Morgan Robertson

Occasionally, literature is prophetic. H.G. Wells' stories, for instance, predicted video recordings, portable television, aerial bombings, and a Second World War starting in 1940 (only one year late). And a 1941 comic book written by Gil Fox described the bombing of Pearl Harbor in surprising detail, precisely one month before it happened.
But perhaps the most meticulously prophetic work of literature is Morgan Robertson's short and poorly written novel, "Futility." In it, Robertson describes the maiden voyage of a British luxury liner called the Titan, which claims to be unsinkable, but sinks anyway after hitting an iceberg. Nearly every detail resembles the story of the Titanic. Of course, nobody thought about that when "Futility" was released in 1898, a full 14 years before the Titanic set sail.
"Futility" wasn't Robertson's only prescient piece of literature. In 1912, three years before his death, he wrote "Beyond the Spectrum." Much like Gil Fox's tale, Robertson's story predicted a Japanese sneak attack on an American fleet in Hawaii, and the resulting war between the two countries.
8. Writing by ear
"Anguish Languish" by Howard L. Chace

Sinker sucker socks pants, apocryphal awry.
If those words don't make sense together, try saying them out loud: "Sing a song of sixpence, a pocketful of rye." Now imagine a whole book written like this, and you've got Howard L. Chace's 1940 collection of nursery rhymes and fairy tales, "Anguish Languish." The work contains classics such as Marry Hatter Ladle Limb and Ladle Rat Rotten Hut, which begins with the immortal line, "Wants pawn term, dare worsted ladle gull hoe lift wetter murder inner ladle cordage."
Although "Anguish Languish" is playful, there was also a serious side to it. As a French professor, Chace used the stories to illustrate that, in spoken English, intonation is almost as important to the meaning as the words themselves.
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9. James Joyce's deaf translation jam
"Finnegans Wake" by James Joyce

James Joyce wrote his final novel, "Finnegans Wake," during a 17-year period in Paris, finishing the work just two years before his death in 1941. During that time, Joyce was nearly blind, so he dictated his stream-of-consciousness prose to his friend, Samuel Beckett. That led to some unexpected results.
For example, during one session, Joyce heard a knock at the door, which was too quiet for Beckett to perceive. Joyce yelled to the visitor, "Come in!" so Beckett added "Come in!" to the manuscript. When Beckett later read the passage back to Joyce, the author decided that he liked it better that way.
After several such sessions, "Finnegans Wake" became one of the most impenetrable works of English literature. But the experience didn't just affect Joyce's novel; it seemed to have a lasting effect on Beckett's writing, as well. Beckett would go on to become a leading playwright in the Theatre of the Absurd, where his characters often spent their entire time on stage sitting in the middle of nowhere, hoping that someone would hear their voice.
10. The art of writing by committee
"The President's Mystery Story" by Franklin Roosevelt and seven other novelists

Many American presidents have written books, but only Franklin Roosevelt has contributed to a mystery novel. At a White House dinner in 1935, Roosevelt pitched his story idea to author Fulton Oursler. Roosevelt's tale started like this: A man named Jim Blake is trapped in a stale marriage and a boring job. He dreams of running off with $5 million and starting over with a new identity.
Unfortunately, the President hadn't worked out one major plot point: How does a man with $5 million disappear without being traced?
To solve the problem, Oursler formed a committee of five other top mystery writers: Rupert Hughes, Samuel Hopkins Adams, Rita Weiman, S. S. Van Dine, and John Erskine. Each author wrote a chapter and ended it with Jim Blake in a terrible situation, which the next author was left to resolve. Despite being the work of a Washington committee, the end result was surprisingly successful. "The President's Mystery Story" was serialized in a magazine, published as a book, and even turned into a movie in 1936.
Yet, the writers never came up with a solution to Roosevelt's original problem. That didn't happen until 1967, when Erle Stanley Gardner wrote a final chapter to a new edition of the book. In it, the secret to Jim Blake's mysterious disappearance is discovered by Gardner's most famous character, Perry Mason.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

End of International Year of Youth

United Nations had named 2010 (MMX) as the International Year of Youth

Farewell, Year of Youth.

Welcome..... International Year of..... Forest and Chemistry?


Well, the symbolism of this year's theme has yet to grasp my understanding, but I am hoping for a good year.
The end of my first year of medical school
My perhaps very last summer break
The start of my second year of medical school...

And hopefully many many exciting, challenging, rewarding, and unforgettable memories to come.




As a side note, here is wikipedia's summary of 2010
(wikipedia, 2010)

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